The Ledger of Youth
On the surface, my life is enviable. I wake in a house that responds to me like a well-trained body: blinds lifting at the exact hour, the hum of a heating system bringing the air to a practiced warmth. Breakfast is measured with the care of a jeweler weighing stones, forty grams of oats, two eggs, a quarter of an avocado. The knife’s edge makes clean work of it. It is not obsession, I tell...